July 5th Entry Fifty-Four
Posted by Frostie
....what was I doing..?
before I blacked out...those weeks ago...
that entire week disappeared...
my voice was so sore...
what happened?
...someone else was in control again...
writing things to make it seem like I had a image of what happend.
trying to make me believe it was real...what did Kai save me from?
what did I want to forget?
the flowers....I was...
going to Nibelhiem...my...Cousin's funeral memorial...
it's too late now...isn't it....
my voice....it's been..so many days..and still...
it doesn't want to return...
I visited them....my stepbrothers...
their mother infuriates me.
...she reminds me of...
their dead already.
does she need to die too?
[added much later in the day]
I have no more need for hesitation.
what's done has been done.
they will be raised in term of revenge, as I was.
it's never been as quiet as it is now....
I want to return to the bar.
even if it is just to ridicuel, and failure.
and dissapearing again.