July 1st Entry Fifty-Three

If Aoi says truly more then five times in a sentence again I'm going to strangle her with my medication.

she is starting to remind me of my first stepmother.
and that could prove a problem seeing as how two out of unknown are dead.

two weeks worth of work to catch up on. no more prettier then Force's grandmother at one in the morning in her nightgown on a couch in front of the TV sharing a six pack with me telling me how back in her day women were treated with respect and treated gloriously by businessmen and aristocrats and artists and that women just had to have dinner prepared, make sure the kids washed up and wear high heels and look glamorous before the husband got home. further reminding me why I dislike the word "Spouse" or term "Husband and wife" it's like linking two potatoes together and expecting intelligence and all you get is a stutter.

maybe that's why I enjoy harassing Kai about getting married and having kids with some dinky prostitute, and then watch as he stuttered and try to change the subject before I bring up something more embarrassing. I'm sure one of Forces workers once took me aside and told me with as straight a face as the man could muster:
"You are a cold hypocritical robot and should die as early as possible."
but that only improved my mood after watching him open up a can of Soda and go blind for three days due to carbonated liquid being jutted into his eyes.

....so many times I keep telling people who seem into me to just go find a prostitute of similar appearance they'd never know the difference. ....no matter how hard it hurts.

Kai'd probably want to....
though he doesn't like seeing me hurt or forced into anything.
I'd rather not see his expression if he saw every scar on my body.
I think one person crying and upset about that is enough-

[Entry ends abruptly here. the latter pages are just misclanious words.]