May 1st Entry Thirty-Seven
Posted by Frostie
Times like these where I wonder why I keep writeing in this. boredom?
I'm sitting around the car garage next to the Shin-Ra building, makeing phonecalls and writeing. reasoning behind that is caution, I look out around the corner and alot of ShinRa were around the four path split in the inner city. maybe they have it closed off....or blocked. I'm not going anywhere close, not feeling particularily up to an interogation in case they're uppity......though it looks like it's breaking up.
I looked back to the first page...and onwards, I'm getting worse, not better.
engadgement was an escape. yet like the ghost I am. I can't wear a ball and chain.
....maybe I should do it a favor and just let it go....or put it down.
..I hate hearing those words...that woman....him speaking so highly of her..
...when it's her fault...her grip that drove Souma to leave....
[the lines of words would become more messed up indicating Ekiri was walking while writeing]
...I should have known...
....I should have killed that bitch....
...should have.....SHOULD HAVE....
[in the middle of the page were droplets of blood followed by badly scratched wording]
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are W orTH LesS.
L-et mE
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...ClOsE...yOur...eyes...
I...WilL taKe awAy..
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...You dispise....
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[Written later]
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I lost control again.
....I killed a delivery boy...
...I need help...
....or do I need more injections...?
a boy I met a while ago helped me...Orpheus.
he's a kid....pretty insightful though.
helped me, whined at me. made cute faces at me. was as if I had a girlfriend.
he woke me up....wouldn't stop annoying me...and fell asleep with his arms around my neck. had no choice but to take him back to the apartment. I let him sleep in my bed. I have work that needs to be done...cleaned up the glass mess. replaced the windows..really still tired...
I don't want to sleep...
...I need to call Yuge....Kai...anyone...make sure they're still alright...
...shit what did I do....
what -ELSE- did I do..?