May 16th Entry Fourty-One

...again...is it happening again?

people I care about being targeted for my mistakes.
it seems a little too fitting...someone broke into my apartment again..
crashed through the window and knocked me out so I couldn't answer my phone...
then I wake up to this message from Kai...

next thing I know..I'm running as fast as I can...
blinded by my own physical hinderance..
...shapes and forms were all white and irredecent...nothing solid...
I was sure if I ran into a wall I would have fallen right through it...

he wasn't at the bar....I felt...like everything was slowly slipping away...
I thought they took him...I thought......I couldn't think straight...
but...he was alright...injured...I took care of him...at the cost of doing something horrible...to myself...for that is my curse...

I injected something into myself...something I had been testing...so I could try to work more hours without physical problems...It worked...but...sometimes I was talking too fast...I noticed that I wasn't responding to Kai in a better way I should have...and afterwards my mind felt like it was in a dense fog...

on top of that..someone broke the table in the bar...a guy in armor ran in...screaming..."Cleanse the unclean" or something like that...he would have killed Kai...with the state he was in..but..we were lucky...Kai cut across his throat and he fell to the floor..

...after that...I can't quite remember...

It became very dark....very blue...again...

was I walking with Kai? I wanted to make sure he was alright.
did I say something wrong?

....I just remember him looking really angry at me.
then nothing....

...I woke up in this hotel room....I don't have anymore time to spend...I have to get back to the workshop...and hope..

......he's..

[the journal entry ends abruptly.
indicating she probably stopped writeing due to interuption]