May 25th Entry Fourty-Three

...I'm scared...

I can't remember waking up this badly injured...
My leg...It's..never been broken before...
..I hate this feeling...
I can't run..

tried to take a shower...nearly passed out from the pain the physical shock..
...I look so horrible now....before...cuts...scrapes...
I would have preffered a bullet to the gut to this....

my hand is so cut up it swells when I try to do the simplist thing....
the left side of my body hurts so much I have to bite my tongue not to cry anytime I have to walk....

...nobody would want a burned up woman...all they do....is pity me...

..I can't fight...

....what happens when they send the next one..?

..am I going to die?

....Souma...if I die...could I see you...before I go to hell?

-Written far later-

I met a new bar regular...or an old one I guess...Ora..
I remember him as the bunny that just vomited cause he drank too much.
aparrently he's a huge pervert too....

I've been filling out forms...he...tried to kiss me...hold me...
even wanted to have sex with me....fucking rabbits....
he....jokingly called me his lover in front of a MP officer..

...was he ShinRa?

...Kai came also...he fell asleep....I asked one of Forces workers to help me bring him to a Hotel again...I was just....too tired to watch over him...

Ora held me so tightly my burn wounds bled...
...I need to redo these bandages....

..I don't like being like this...even if someone touches me...it hurts...
my hands...my chest....my legs....everything...

...I don't want to be weak....why did this have to happen?

....who did this to me?