May 7th Entry Thirty-Nine

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Turned on the radio for the first time in a while..
..I listened to the SNN report. for once since I killed my first stepmother.
herself a ShinRa news reporter....this broadcast told me a bartender I hired...was impaled by a damn tree...is he dead?

Haven't seen the guy since I hired him due to outer business I had to take care of
....but geeze..impaled...by a mutated tree.


I've done nothing for a large part of today...stared at the celing...
phone hasn't made any noise at all...it either ran out of batteries or i'm uneeded.

....I refuse to sleep...yet all I've done over the past 16+ hours has been hideing under these sheets....I need to go to work today or else i'll get an earful from Dean....I'll get an earful anyways...I don't want to send this report in.

...what the fuck should I say, Hired two bartenders one got impaled recently.
I haven't heard from him since he came in and saw me treating Kai's wounds.

...now i'm just frustrated again...

...my tempature's gone up....I can't afford to have anymore sick days...I'll just bundle up and hide my face...like usual nobody will tell the difference....
..just...be normal...smile...cheery..happy...no matter how you feel..

can't have Kai be pissed off again...
....he doesn't believe I could stop him...that I could help him...
..or does he?

...I don't know anymore...