April 28th Entry Thirty-Six

The ocean, again...

The waves..

this morning I awoke to....several drunken calls from Kai.
he was alright. that's good....I didn't reply until much later,

I met with my father in the morning, after I told him what I had done,
he was upset. and told me what a pathetic child I was.
...when I tried to tell him I was sorry, he hit me with the butt of his sword...right...in the damn stitches...and told me again;

"You are like a child crying in the rain.
that nobody will want to be around."

The truth that cut me, soon...I'll be alone again.
I know...no matter what happens...
soon Kai...Yuge...Ed....anyone else who follows me...will become sick of this.
and abandon me...for their sakes...I hope they do.