March 20th Entry Twenty One
Posted by Frostie
[Ekiri's pen writeing is horrible. indicating she can't use her right hand very well out of strain]
Can't sleep...
...images flashing through my head...
I didn't experience them...but they are there...
...words I've never heard...ringing through my ears..
...I fought with him...and lost...I'm cut up...my head hurts...
he's lying close to me...at least the barman...knows to keep his distance...
"You know..he always liked you.."
...him walking into the bar...
....straddling my sides....
"And yet... you treat me just as she treats him...No wonder hes pissed off all the time!"
..who...what...was that...I can't..think properly...
...fire...I remember..the fire...was..he on fire?
...I just...feel..so tired...but I can't sleep...
these wounds are treated...yet they sting as though they were made seconds ago...
....can't...break the cat lady's fingers....i'll let her be...for now..
I'm not scared....
..this pain can be forgotten....
...why...do I like this..?
..the laughter...the pain...not haveing control..
...control of what's done to me....
..my fingers...cut...
...my throat hurts...my lungs hurt...
....my shoulder is shredded....
...my legs are like jelly...
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...I feel like my skin is on fire....
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[a long pen mark goes down the page and that is the end of this entry]