April 26th Entry Thirty-Five

I don't remember a great many things about the past few days.

Hunting someone, outside of Junon...was quite a huge private bounty.
but for one tiny guy...scrawny..glasses...office attire. I don't remember what happened when I approached him. I felt like something was poking my skin...did I..

...I can't believe myself. I didn't realize it until now...
it felt like I was blinded...when I got control back...I was in Midgar, the upper plates. starring at some..joke of a contest...it looked familiar, and I was right when I saw Kai. it was a Mr. Midgar contest...course I told him I was here on business, I'm sure "Oh I probably overdosed on drugs and killed a guy" would have gone over swell with him. ....I like Kai better when he's smiling...not pissed off...I think I'm learning how to make him smile more,

strange thing is...I think I did kill my hunt. Force called me as the contest was going on.... and said the money was transferred...and asked why I sounded so odd when I called in to say the hunt was finished.
the picture was on my phone.

I need to tread cautiously. Kai gave me the means to get back to Junon as fast as possible....once I launder the bounty cash I'll throw it his way. probably either not enough or more then enough for putting up with me.
to fund Force, his grandmother, the bar and all of the employees as well as the suit,
it's just things I have to do...

seeing that contest...gave me goosebumps...especially capturing a glimpse of..

...Kai telling me that....

..why am I still afraid of him?

...so he's alive? big deal.

I paid the price for fighting a first class....the scar on my spine...
my arm being mangled from force of a blade...he apologized...
I shouldn't still feel this way.

Nothing like a hard drink to forget the past.