February 5th Entry Five

I'd better write this before any customers come in....

holy fuck i'm covered in blood,
if Yuge see's me..hah...gotta make sure to shout "It's not mine!"

I made a fight a little too personal, instead of burning I guess I took a blade and...went to town.

was investigateing a rumor....augh, outside of Junon, I know I really need to stop this, I just get so damn ancy...if Yuge found out he'd probably give me lip...
I'll tell him when he's in a good mood...then..try not to leave Junon...
but this place is like a box full of rules! I can't do shit here without getting suspected of criminal intent!

...well geeze, I guess they'd be right to suspect me...
former terrorist...kidnapper...murderer..not as bad as others,
maybe that's behind me...
but that's a year that isn't going away.

when I was working with Kai as a mercenary, I don't even think while we were fighting...I was never covered in this much blood, but maybe that's cause Kai kept shielding me from it. he's much darker then I am...I can say that much.


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[Scratched on the bottom fresher then the previous notes]

Two...officers?...one looked more rookie-ish then the other...
they walked into the bar...I was cleaning blood off my face...
and they promptly exited...

...Should I be running away from the bar now?

I'm being paranoid.

[Scratched even further down on the page seeming to follow hours later]

...I swear, being pregnant is makeing me see things.
A...SOLDIER, from what one of the bar ocupants said afterwards; came into the bar..this was far after the other ShinRa who stopped by, but...the voice, I swear I could have heard it from somewhere before, my neck felt really..freaking tight when I spoke to him and got his alchohol. maybe it was...G...

Nah...I don't believe it. .....shit i'm just being so paranoid today..
he said..."Thank you", I know this shouldn't be bothering me.
but seriously was my neck twingeing...was it a nervious reaction? sure, SOLDIERS can be intimidating...if it was one...but really they're just...customers nothing different...

fuck, this is going to bother me for the rest of the day...

moreso then finding out, someone else is looking for Souma's killer....Suriel Cyncad,
a drunk...ShinRa cadet who claims to have loved Souma. and wanted to marry her.
I don't believe him...something..just doesn't click right, I'm cooperating with him for now...but I can't trust him fully, the reasoning behind that...

is I've had people come up to me before, tough shit mercs, bodyguards. bounty hunters, ease in while I was getting a drink last year, trying to say they had information of "A catgirl that was shot" sometimes they'd be dumb enough to say Souma's name outright. maybe to make me agressive. I was desprate and did stupid things...i'm not going to slip up now.