October 22nd Entry Ninety-Eight
Posted by Frostie
Speaking to Kenji's sister brought alot of odd things in perspective;
I made a choice and im happy about it.
even if nobody else is.
Is this what a mother's life is?
constant struggle between yourself, the people you love;
and the creature you gave birth to?
I wish I knew but there are no easy answers...
well there's one easy answer; Yuge is a fucking creep.
but looks like I'll have to keep a closer eye on things.
I wonder what Kai thinks, I want to know...
what does he want out of our relationship?
it's past farther than me just oweing my life to him,
I have to start devoting my life to raising a child...
I get..a feeling thats scaring him away.
he was okay with it at first but now it's just a source of uncomfortableness.
Maybe I've been too soft with him, too hard and he'll just get angry and.....
then he'll lose it again. and then I'll lose him.
why can't living a normal life just be easy?