June 19th Entry Fifty-One
Posted by Frostie
Tao....Freyja....Chitose....
...men....women..children...
in the last two years....in the last ten years....
Have I changed?
...I've become more focused....
...but since that day...my blood keeps running cold...anytime anyone gets close to me. it's not comfortable for me....I give in...just to get it over with....
sleeping under a pile of corpses...
people i've murdered....mutated...
and only three....could be classified as something ShinRa...or their coleigues would look at me with distain about...if they actually knew...
...I've been good about covering up my tracks...what I've learned from Kai when we traveled together.... how to make myself invisible...get just enough interest...
.....I wont let ShinRa catch me...not again....
...I can't afford to be caught now.
I don't want to remember that white hallway....
....that SOLDIER....
....the feeling...of absolute dispair...
a slap on the wrist is one thing...but what I've done...
...anyone with a sense of morality wouldn't set me to prison...
...do they have anywhere worse here?
I need this off my mind...maybe I'll go get some flowers for Souma.
I'm being paranoid...that's all it is....