January 27th First Entry

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I'm Pregnant.

I never thought this would happen.
I mean it, this is a physical improbability...

I wonder if I should be laughing or crying,
last month Yuge proposed to me, now i'm pregnant, what's next? quick old age?
Things never stop happening around Yuge, but I'm glad. that means things are never boring, he told me he would love to have a child with me...I was worried, but I didn't let him see me concerned, Regarding Tamio's child, if it looks like Yuge, that's all it is...I feel selfish for even writeing this, but I gave up my first born child to death, so that I could follow Yuge to my eventual breakdown.
in my honest opinion, it takes more balls to kill your unborn child by cutting into yourself when nobody is around, rather than taking the fancy way and just bareing the child to the world and it's ruin.

Enough with that for now,
I thought i'd write this while Yuge was sleeping...heh...
I..er...kinda dressed up for him while he was on the phone reguarding buisness..
man that look on his face...

[A few pen mark indents could suggest she was laughing while writeing]

...I..don't think I'll be able to walk properly for a few days..
..seriously didn't know the extent of ways I could bend, until tonight,
I feel tired, but things should be okay..I trust Yuge, he wont leave me again...
we trust each other, right?

...Happy birthday Yuge, and thank you...for not giveing up on me. <3
I'll gladly, always wake up by your side.